sometimes i realize the complexity of this life. being a wife, a mom, a friend, and above all be a daughter of God.... when is there time to sit and ponder what i want.... then actually have the time to go out and do it. don't get me wrong, i love my life and my son. he is the greatest gift i have ever received! but my life revolves around these "job titles". i just wonder if that is really me... or if i am doing a disservice to my life by just accepting this as my life. i could be living in Europe (where there is universal Health care .. and if i wanted to have another child i could get paid for staying at home with my kids), traveling, taking my husband and kid on a safari in Africa, or even going to school and doing something more than just being ordinary.
is ordinary enough? Sometimes i think so. For example: yesterday i woke up fed my son got him packed up in the car and went to Target. I got a few things for the house... had a few people stop and ask me how old Connor was ... then stood there for a while talking about if i breast fed or not, how long was my labor, is he sitting up, how old he was when he started solid foods... i guess when you have kids everything we were taught about keeping certain facts about your self that shouldn't be shared with perfects strangers goes completely out the window. Anywho... so then i continue shopping and find these amazing picture frames for eight bucks... yes!!!! i pick up a few other things and rush home because i can't wait to get my pictures into those frames and change up my wall setting. Connor falls asleep on the way home and when i get there i put everything away and start on my project. i print up some new pictures of the family and put them in my amazing 8 dollar frames and wait until my husband gets home to show him. even though when he gets home he is more interested in his new gadget he got in the mail to even notice but when i point it out he likes it.
but you see what i mean? Ordinary.
Should i be expecting more in my life than this? i mean im happy... but am i suppose to wake up every morning jumping up and down for my day to start... and being excited for life? i just don't think that will ever be me. are there people out there like that? please enlighten me.
